hot
tomato soup
brown
bread broken into it –
mother’s
comfort food
*
my
pretty mother –
different from her
I
felt ugly
*
I was her first –
she told me, when I cried
she told me, when I cried
she
cried too
*
did
she know me
as her only daughter
that
last day?
Written for the 'Mother's Day' prompt by Chevrefeuille at Carpe Diem.
Also linking to Poets United's Poetry Pantry #353
Also linking to Poets United's Poetry Pantry #353
So moving, Rosemary. My mom made me milk with bread cubes and sugar.....sigh. my mom also was beautiful and I felt her dismay over my freckle faced plainness.
ReplyDeleteBut the photo of you as a curly haired young one shows you were beautiful.
ReplyDeleteMy dainty, slim, dark-haired mother was actually delighted to have plump, fair children (courtesy of my Dad). As an Anglo-Indian growing up in India, she had suffered from racism and was glad we would escape that.
DeleteOh, and the plumpness in those days was considered a sign of health and therefore good mothering.
DeleteBut I felt ugly anyway, as I thought she was SO beautiful and I so unlike.
Ah Rosemary ... so absolutely beautiful ... brought healing tears... I am sure you were an absolutely delight and testament to your Mum's love and wonderful mothering. Impossible for you to be ugly in any way shape of form - except as you describe in your own desire to be a tintype of your delicate Mother... Your beauty both physical and spiritual continues to shine up until this very day as it shall beyond. <3 <3
ReplyDeleteLast days are difficult. I feel sure that even if there is no outward recognition on the part of the one who is fading away, the soul still knows.
ReplyDeleteI love the tenderness in each verse and the sense of both love and vulnerability maybe when we feel safe they go hand in hand
ReplyDeleteI look back with long hindsight, and compassion now for the mother I was often at odds with during her life. Despite our difficulties, I always knew that wherever she was I could find a home if I needed one. Perhaps that is the same as feeling safe.
DeleteBeautiful words on Mother's Day. Thank you Rosemary!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful way to describe your relationship to your mother in those moments (from past to last)
ReplyDeleteSparsely worded, yet saying SO much. Beautiful and touching.
ReplyDeleteThis is soo incredibly poignant, Rosemary!
ReplyDeleteThese have a delicate touch so befitting the day and relationship,
ReplyDeleteElizabeth
Whoa! Packed with intensity needed to be sorted.
ReplyDeleteZQ
Yes!
DeleteI have trouble thinking that you could ever be anything but beautiful. Still, I understand your comparison and admiration for your mother. Enjoyed all these Rosemary. They are tender and sweet.
ReplyDeleteWe had a difficult relationship, being very different in personality and values as well as looks. But we loved each other too, and sometimes managed to find understanding.
ReplyDeleteThese haiku seemed to offer a wonderful canvas to espresso your feelings
ReplyDeleteVery touching Rosemary. You have described your bond with your mother in a wonderful loving way. Thank you for sharing these emotions with us.
ReplyDeletePoignant pieces of a love that has the power to forevermore imbue tomato soup with more emotion than could ever be served from a can!!
ReplyDeleteso good Rosemary..especially the second one...so nicely done.
ReplyDeleteLovely and impactful. These are very emotive and touching. Beautifully written haiku.
ReplyDeleteLuv your shades of mother/daughter relationship Rosemary. Our mothers most times are our first stars we want the hair the figure the red lips. We want to shine like them. Your haiku speaks volumes. Thanks for dropping by my Sunday Standard this week
ReplyDeleteMuch love...
Very personal moments, and all connected by love. Thank you for sharing! Glad you are working with haiku group. :)
ReplyDeleteMother/daughter relationships have their moments but she she was always there for you and that is what counts.
ReplyDeleteI am sure you were beautiful Rosemary as you are beautiful now, that said, I really do understand.
ReplyDeleteI always felt the 'unloved' child, brother and sis loved, but not me. Sharing our thoughts when we all adults, it became apparent that they had all felt they were the unloved one too. But none of us was - as children do, each of us felt vulnerable, but we were all certainly loved.
Anna :o]