All I Want is Impossible to Say (April Challenge 17)

Prompt: Write a poem called "All I want is (blank)"
and fill in the blank.

This is my fifth attempt
to write this poem
and they are all different.

I don’t merely fiddle
with variations on a theme,
I start whole new stories.

Some of them are even true
as far as they go
but they don’t go deep.

There are the little things I want
(you know – beauty, money,
and poetry to rival Shakespeare)

and then there are the great
like saving the planet
and still that’s not deep enough.

I have never been able to tell
even the closest people
what lies in my deepest heart.

All I want I cannot say
and no-one could give it anyway
except God who knows untold.