On the night of the full moon last
I did the ritual —
I called the Powers to
witness
my long-delayed, formal goodbye
to the dear man who has gone into
my past.
Not that I could see the full moon.
It was utterly black, that sky —
not even pin-prick stars.
Heavy, relentless, the rain fell
and fell.
Light would not pierce that veil, not soon.
So I came indoors,
and from far and high
I called them all —
the elements, the God, the Goddess
—
into my bedroom, which used to be ours.
And there I said goodbye to my
beloved;
a final, deliberate farewell
within a circle of sacred space,
watched by the moon’s invisible eye
…
admitting at last that he is dead.
This form, invented by David James, is called Karousel
A powerful piece of writing. It is hard to make the transition of having a person present to having him/her be past. You wrote about the ritual well; and I hope it was able to bring you some peace.
ReplyDeleteThank you,dear Mary. Yes, it did help.
DeleteRosemary, you are brave. It is so hard to say goodbye. We cling to their memory as if to keep their presence from escaping. I love "within a circle of sacred space" and "the moon's invisible eye".
ReplyDeleteMany thanks, Sherry. I received a dream which told me I must stop clinging or I risked getting stuck in the past. The Message of the Terrible Dream
DeleteOh, Rosemary... this makes me cry, but is such a necessary step in the healing process. Bless you.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Laurie. Yes, I'm afraid one must go through all the steps of the process.
Deletei know how hard it is to say goodbye. you've expressed it so delicately and beautifully. i loved the part of calling elements and a space watched by the moon’s eye..a deeply poetic and moving piece, thank you for sharing and thank you for the visit and kind comment~
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for your visit here, and kind comment! :)
DeleteHeartbreaking, so sad. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ayala. When all's said and done, I do feel blessed.
Deletegosh..wow...there is a lot of emotion behind this for me...it would be so hard to say that goodbye...it takes great strength...i find your ritual so moving though....it is a risk getting stuck in the past...
ReplyDeleteSometimes, a ritual is the only way to get things out of your system to feel whole again. Fire helps much with me.
ReplyDeleteI did light a candle. :)
DeleteEvery time, every time I read this I quiver just a little. I feel like I'm with you because your words pull me in and yet it is your pain so out of respect I stand at arm's length. I'm not sure this even make sense.
ReplyDeleteSo let me just say that your love and words are powerful and leave me feeling a little awestruck.
Thank you, dear D.
DeleteYou captured the sad finality of admitting that a loved one is gone forever, but , in the admission, is the power to move forward, however slowly that process may be. The first step is taken! Wonderful writing!
ReplyDeleteThank you.
DeleteAlthough I hate the fact, I know the moving forward is essential. And taking that first step has made a difference.
You so generously share with us, in accessible and beautiful verse, the journey of release, goodbye, you're on. Every time you write to this theme, I am touched and enlightened. Thank you, Rosemary.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kim. I'm glad to no it is not yet becoming too repetitive or gloomy.
DeleteSuch a sad poem - so sorry for your loss. My father recently died - very hard for my mother after sixty years together. So wonderful, at least, to have been loved--your poem shows that love. k.
ReplyDeleteYes, it IS better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. :)
DeleteThe loss is hard enough after 20 years together; cannot imagine how your mother would cope.
i like how you make saying goodbye a ritual, it used to be like this in former times and in some cultures still is..i think we need the time to really come to that point... hugs your way rosemary...
ReplyDeletergd. your comment.. she's in sydney and studying there for half a year..a shame you don't live closer, i'd sent her over for a cup of coffee otherwise...you would like her...smiles
Thanks, Claudia.
DeleteI'm sure your daughter will make friends wherever she is! :)
Wow I have to get my Mom to read this one. We just lost my Dad a few months back and I think my Mom coud really use this poem now. I will make sure she comes here to read this one. I use part of her account when I created the poetry blog on it. So when the messages is seen at times it is in her name. But I do love this piece and I have it marked to read it to her tomorrow. Thank you so much. http://gatelesspassage.com/2013/02/02/reflections/
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome. I hope she finds it helpful.
DeleteSuch a lovely form containing your sorrow ~ I love the goodbye ritual with the moon ~ I hope you find peace in letting go and accepting his death ~
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing ~
Thanks for 'listening'!
DeleteOh, Rosemary. This is huge, courageous, beautiful and loving. I need to share it with my mum too.
ReplyDeleteBig hug.
Diane
I hope your Mum will get something from it. xx
DeleteSuch a power-filled strength in sorrow. I still long for those that have passed on without me. Perhaps a farewell is needed but when the time is right... Blessings
ReplyDeleteYes, I think it is a very personal thing, and we must all take it at our own pace. For me it seemed necessary at this point, and this was the right time for me. I think we have to listen to our own hearts and intuition.
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