February clouds: haiku and things for February 2007

2/2/07:

The view from Dawn's diningroom

Meadows green and gold
lead my gaze past the farmhouse
to vast rolling cloud.


9/2/07:

Wide as a river
my salty green tidal creek
jumping with fish.

***

Water aerobics.
All alone I dance for joy.
Pelican beaks clap.


10/2/07:

Flung into my mind
this thought of yours starts ripples
that keep widening.


14/2/07:

I don't send, this day,
a big red Valentine heart.
Love you all the days....

***

He sends me a rose
and promises love always.
All day I'm singing.


23/2/07:

February clouds.
White orchids tinged with purple
wait for the rain.


© Rosemary Nissen-Wade 2007

January rain: haiku and things for January 2007

5/1/07:

January rain.
Your face looking back at me.
The warmth in your eyes.



12/1/07:

She holds the infant,
its head soft against her cheek,
inhaling skin, hair.

***

The photo

While you are gone, missing your voice
I turn often to your speaking face.


14/1/07:

My dead friend. And you,
the living friend so like him.
My soul is twice blessed.

***

The view from Down Under

America wakes
and comes online, we can tell.
MySpace gets clunky.


12/1/07:

The tidal river.
A black arrow strikes the shore:
sudden cormorant.


19/1/07

My mind has blanked out.
It's the heat. It gets to me.
My brain is melting.


26/1/07

Goddess Exhibition, Art Gallery of NSW

As we wait in line
Krishna embraces Radha
and music begins.


Green Tara

Smiling serenely
she makes a gesture of giving,
dangling one gilt leg.


© Rosemary Nissen-Wade 2007

Tracks

For Connie

I walk the beach

in our winter sun,

gathering stones and shells.

The heavy lace-up boots

I bought in Lamesa, Texas,

leave distinctive tracks.

      ***

We stood on a small rise

at the edge of Indian land. 

‘This is my ocean,’ she said.

I gazed at acres of prairie,

waves of rolling scrub,

an endless, hypnotic horizon.

Heat lay like a cape

on my shoulders.

The wide, flat roadway

shifted and bled.

An older landscape rose

through structures

of present time.

I knew the curve of its earth,

I knew the shape of its light.

      ***

I walk the winter beach

tracking my footprints back

to find the place I entered,

a pathway through the scrub.

A man stands in the shallows

fishing the outgoing tide.

The breeze freshens.

Submitted for dVerse Entwin(n)ed Poetics June 2013

I met Connie in Lamesa, Texas, in April 2006 when I was a guest in her home, a featured reader at the annual Forrest Fest arts festival (behind which she is the driving force) and we also celebrated Beltane together. Put in touch by a mutual friend, we recognised each other at once as soul twins, and still keep in touch.

And here is her twin poem for me! —

Without Time

for Rosemary

I gather tears in my eyes

Remembering heat waves rising

On the distant prairie edge as together

We survey the blue and ridged rim of sandstone cliffs

Bearing the scarred bones of Apache warriors

We miss the lone buffalo that roams

There, the golden eagle I hoped would

Re-appear for my visitor from down under,

The cliche road juggles us back through shinery

Past red and black Indian blankets, yellow sunflowers

A budding Ycca tall and slender sprouting from the earth

To un-posted property from the

Trespass we have entered, a place

Where time stands still and the moment becomes

Buried treasure in the badlands.

My Australian friend blends into the

Landscape, a desert Rose . .

Soon we will return to our respective realities

We are distant, separate in our bodies

Hemispheres attempt to separate our souls,

Yet and still, the spirit transcends the borders

Her ocean waves bump against my prairie sand dunes

We are one under the moon

                               

Connie Williams

Missing San Antonio

The small white square of the Alamo
was a glimpse only as we sped past,
one building in a street
of newer, taller, wider forms
that had it surrounded.

It looked ridiculously tiny
but pretty; its crenellated rim
like an edging of lace.

It was natural, I suppose,
that my mind would turn
to the old, sweet song about
the rose: Rose of San Antone,

Where in dreams I live
with a memory …
An interlude of joyful
dancing music, players
like jesters and troubadours.

And the tall stranger afterwards,
talking of shades and angels.
Enchantment strange …
but we had to go.

Broken song …
It plays in my head now
each time I recall those moments,

a tender lament
for dreams half-remembered,
that never were, or might have been....
Deep within my heart …
by the Alamo ...

Submitted (several years later) for dVerse Poetics: Trip the Poem Fantastic

Morning Routine

1. Wake too early,
embraced by heat.
The local weather? Or is he —
already out and about —
sending me warm thoughts?
My own thoughts are warm.
I stretch and snuggle
and start this morning’s poem in my head.

2. Look at the clock
with the usual surprise.
Wherever I am, in what country,
my body always wakes me up
after only five hours’ sleep.
Don’t talk to me about eight hours.
It isn’t the light that does it;
it’s still dark and my curtains are closed.

3. Get up. Pee. Head for the kitchen.
Examine more lines of the poem forming.
Repeat them aloud so as not to lose them.
Boil water to brew coffee.
Leave breakfast for later.
Take the cup back to bed.
Pile up the pillows behind my back.
Settle with coffee, notebook and pen.

4. Think censored thoughts.
(This has actually been going on
the whole time.) Also think
soft, sweet, sentimental thoughts (ditto).
Experience delightful spasms,
involuntary, aroused by thought alone.
Start scribbling. Sprawl. Scratch head
with end of pen. Sip coffee.

5. Remember last night —
jumping around on a low stage
with poets and musicians.
Already, here with these youngsters,
I find community.
They love me. I love them.
I’m wild and funny.
They say I’m a legend.

6. Re-examine clock.
Not yet an hour.
Decide it’s too early to phone,
knowing it’s probably not.
Imagine a conversation.
Realise they never go as imagined.
Turn into awkward adolescent.
Defer the call for now.

7. Think of his voice. Roll over
on tummy and squirm. Think of
his hair, his eyes, his everything. Wish
he could have seen the poet last night:
no glamour, just herself, in old black daks
and t-shirt, having a ball. Be deliciously aware
that happiness is a cool scene and a hot lover.
Be deliciously aware that happiness is now.

April 2006

This Morning

I wake hearing the ocean
thunder at my back door
like wind in the trees.
… I am not at home,
there is no ocean.
The trees outside are still
against the lightening sky.

The roar of the spirit wind   
is full of you; I breathe in deeply
the knowledge of you in my life.

The sound of wind or ocean
surges again. It might be a plane
or a truck. I think you must
be awake by now. I imagine you
waking, stirring and stretching
like a big cat. I imagine lying
next to you, stroking your body.

A cardinal flits through the branches
outside my window. I breathe
in Texas, a new day begins.

Note: Texas is very far away from my home in Australia

Linking (nearly 11 years later!) to The Tuesday Platform for 13 Feb 2018 at "imaginary garden with real toads"

Promises

Last night I made vows.
I will keep them.

I promise to love you
all my life. I believe
I will love you longer than forever.
I promise to share with you
whatever wisdom I have or acquire.
I forgot that you’re likely to get
all my folly and ignorance too.
I promise to send you energy
ongoingly for your wellbeing
and empowerment. This I have already
been doing ever since we met —that night
and every night. And finally, I promise
to stay in touch with you, if you
stay in touch with me, keeping me
up-to-date with your contact details.
I came so close to missing you!
I want … more than is possible,
but will rejoice in communication.

I ask for nothing in return.
I may ask for things, I probably will —
but nothing is owed. Nothing.
No obligations, nothing you don’t choose.
This I decided from the first,
not knowing if I would even
see you again. This is
my free choice. This
is my response to you.


The great advantage of time and years
is stepping into truth.
Believe me, as I believe you.



18 April 06 8.15am

Fib*

Dave—
why
do I
get stupid
when I’m around you?
I become a 15-year-old
on her first date and terrified of not being liked
on closer acquaintance. Bear with her, please. She’s just 
   shy and awkward, stunned by your beauty.

April 2006


* This name is nothing to do with telling lies! It's the name for Fibonacci poetry (aka Fibetry) based on the Fibonacci mathematical sequence applied to syllable count per line. The number of syllables in each line of the poem is the sum of the previous two lines: 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, and so on. (The last two lines above are really one line, which is too long to fit into a one-line space.)

In this particular poem the first line doubles as title.

Dear Nana —

I was just four

when you went to Heaven.

How could you leave me 

so tightened down, 

so shrunk …

so cold my air,

so strange and fogged 

my home garden

in which I wandered

every step uncertain,

missing your held hand

your warm contralto laugh?

I still remember

the songs and tales

in that haven, your lap.

How did you change

to a white lump

in the hospital —

in the high bed

where I could not reach you

and you were so silent?

I hung my head,

gave silence back.

You were Florence,

daughter of Jane

the famous beauty.

My aunts remembered her.
To me, beauty was you —

old fat woman from India.

Your long hair

brushed out for bed 

unfurled like a princess’s

all down your back.

Then you rewound it,

plaited and coiled

as your crown.

I tried to find

your big hotel

on Puri beachfront,

your life before:

the life of the stories.

I travelled all that way —

the other side of the world —

old woman myself by then.

Nana, where were you?

Without your old photos 

from the family album

I couldn’t be sure.

Hotelier, hospital matron,

young mother, wronged lover —

these I knew not.

In the apple orchard

trailed by your dogs,

and the birds lilting,

I place you forever:

in Spreyton, Tasmania.

From the cottage doorway

you smile welcome

— dear Nana.