I ... entered the poem of life, whose purpose is ... simply to witness the beauties of the world, to discover the many forms that love can take. (Barabara Blackman in 'Glass After Glass')

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Showing posts with label bereavement. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bereavement. Show all posts

24 July 2017

July Nights: Sequence

July nights
darkness brings a chill
I’m alone

I huddle
into my jacket
deny cold

turn on light 
and warmth to cancel
memories

already
five years ago, still
I shiver


(It's winter in Australia – and time for my 'anniversary reaction'.)

4 June 2017

'My Heart is a Ghost Town'

... the man sings, lamenting
love lost, a lover gone

and I think, never mind my heart, 
my head's where the ghosts reside

of lovers gone – never lost –
the talkative ghosts

who haunt my old age
pleasantly

as we reminisce, and finally 
resolve our stone-cold issues ...

good to have a yarn
for old times' sake.


Written for Flash 55 – PLUS! 3 June 2017 at 'imaginary garden with real toads'.

29 November 2015

Passages

Sometimes, working late, I hear
a thump on the door, and think,
'There's my old cat wanting to come in' 
though I know it isn't, and can't be, 
and won't. Never again. My cat is dead.

***

Deep night.
That mournful sound:
faintly, a plane going over
high and alone up there,
droning its way away
dwindling into distance.

***

That tree, a weed not pulled,
grew fast, filling my skyline.
I try to remember now, and can’t –
had it even begun as a tiny shoot
when he was still here to see?


(Written as separate gogyoshi, then I discerned a theme.)

Linked to Poets United's Poetry Pantry #280

24 November 2015

Surviving the Going On


Keep no promises to the dead.
That is a book that can't be read.
Life's path meanders; pages turn.
Time and new circumstance will burn all that you said.

You'll become a different you.
And the dead one is changing too.
The life here retreats to the past.
The soul says goodbye, and at last goes somewhere new.

The dead don't need or heed your word.
They leave who they were; you're unheard.
Death may be peaceful or violent.
No matter: to remain silent is not absurd.

It's otherwise while they're dying.
Speak loud, let the words come flying.
Promise anything that they ask.
Comfort, then, is your only task – even lying.

Later, let yourself be absolved.
Cycles of grief will have revolved.
There will come time to pause, look back.
You'll see that, walking this long track, you have evolved.

Survival IS the going on.
Move forward, beyond what is gone.
If you are still alive, then live!
That's the best, only gift to give to your loved one.


Written for Poets United's Midweek Motif: Survival. The suggested topic has to do with surviving violence. I have little experience of that. Instead, the first line of this poem jumped into my head and I went from there. I have been widowed a little over three years. In fact, no promises were asked or made at his dying – and if he had asked anything from me, it would have been exactly what I say in the final verse. But perhaps I had subconscious stuff to evolve from. And I do see that I have evolved. It may seem a cynical poem, but it feels positive.

The form is a Florette: a recent prompt from dVerse, which I didn't have time to address until now. To make every line a finite sentence was my own addition, for some unconscious reason – something to do with the finality of death, perhaps.