And I don't mean emotionally, though I hope it is that too.
I will leave this blog here as an archive, but future poems will be at "Enheduanna's daughter". If you want to follow that blog or subscribe by email, when you get there you'll need to click the small horizontal bars high on top left, so as to display the sidebar where you can make those arrangements.
Why am I doing this? I struck a formatting glitch at "The Passionate Crone", which I can't fix. And maybe it's just time for a change anyway. (*Grin.*)
I ... entered the poem of life, whose purpose is ... simply to witness the beauties of the world, to discover the many forms that love can take. (Barabara Blackman in 'Glass After Glass')
These poems are works in progress and may be updated without notice. Nevertheless copyright applies to all writings here and all photos (which are either my own or used with permission). Thank you for your comments. I read and appreciate them all, and reply here to specific points that seem to need it — or as I have the leisure. Otherwise I reciprocate by reading and commenting on your blog posts as much as possible.
7 February 2018
6 February 2018
Unanswered Messages
Oh, what mystery there is in silence! The mind rushes in to fill the void with imaginings. You are no longer the dear you I think I knew before; you become an amorphous, shifting proliferation of possibilities. The human mind is hard-wired to attach meanings to all phenomena. So the absence of communication doesn't stay simply that; I make it mean this about me and that about you, many thises and thats. I make it mean that someone is wrong, someone is to be blamed. I did something wrong, therefore you don't communicate. Or your non-communication is you doing something wrong. Or maybe neither: perhaps circumstances are to blame. Perhaps your computer is broken, or lost, or stolen. Perhaps you are busy, or tired, or sick, or dead. Something is to blame, something is wrong. It cannot just be: a thing in itself. Nature doesn't abhor a vacuum nearly as much as that part of nature called the human mind does.
the air turns cold
after the sound of rain
ceases
I came across this journal entry from some time ago – the prose piece – and thought it just needed a verse added to become a haibun.
Linking to The Tuesday Platform for Feb 6 2018 at "imaginary garden with real toads". I am shifting my (future) poetry to a new blog, which I did not anticipate when I posted this one. It seems kinda appropriate / ironic that the last one here is about unanswered messages, which might even be unread – so, by linking, I am making sure it is read!
the air turns cold
after the sound of rain
ceases
I came across this journal entry from some time ago – the prose piece – and thought it just needed a verse added to become a haibun.
Linking to The Tuesday Platform for Feb 6 2018 at "imaginary garden with real toads". I am shifting my (future) poetry to a new blog, which I did not anticipate when I posted this one. It seems kinda appropriate / ironic that the last one here is about unanswered messages, which might even be unread – so, by linking, I am making sure it is read!
2 February 2018
A Ghazal On Whether the Beloved Is Aloof Or Touchy-Feely
A ghazal, we are told, should be melancholy
with craving the Beloved. Heavens, what folly!
Who, then, is this elusive Beloved? Golly –
it seems that the longed-for one is the most holy.
Yes, God. And who's that? A Santa, roly-poly?
Or a Jehovah, much less cuddly and jolly?
People seem to see God as masculine wholly,
whether that figure is Almighty or lowly.
But let us consider this carefully and slowly.
Perhaps as Great Mother we perceive Her truly.
Then, do we crave hugs She might give to a dolly?
Do we hunger for the sweetness of a lolly?
I think She must be rather more than that, surely!
Nor would She separate Herself from us coolly.
OK, I'll tell you the truth of it. (Or shall I?
Who of us knows the truth of anything fully?)
Nevertheless, I can make a sortie or sally.
Know this: I was once with Hafiz. I was really.
A seer told me this – and he was not merely
a charlatan, I promise. So you must rally.
You must set your will to accept I see clearly.
Poor Hafiz. In that life he was off his trolley!
He got it wrong about God. Well, it was early
in our understanding. Now we guess more nearly.
It is true we've always known God loves us dearly.
Therefore She will never depart from you, silly!
She is not trivial or fickle or frilly.
Neither is the path to Her side steeply hilly.
The one who tells you this is speaking truthfully
from deep Remembrance ... if not strictly ghazaly.
Written for dVerse "Meeting the Bar – The Ghazal".
I added a further constraint, rhyming every line rather than just every couplet. On the other hand, I ignored the refrain. However it's more un-ghazaly in mood than form.
[Fellow-Aussies, please applaud me for having resisted working in "Up there, Cazaly!"]
After reading all the beautiful poems others have written to this prompt, I feel a bit ashamed. Perhaps I'll try a serious one too in the near future. (Though actually this one does have a serious message underneath the play.)
with craving the Beloved. Heavens, what folly!
Who, then, is this elusive Beloved? Golly –
it seems that the longed-for one is the most holy.
Yes, God. And who's that? A Santa, roly-poly?
Or a Jehovah, much less cuddly and jolly?
People seem to see God as masculine wholly,
whether that figure is Almighty or lowly.
But let us consider this carefully and slowly.
Perhaps as Great Mother we perceive Her truly.
Then, do we crave hugs She might give to a dolly?
Do we hunger for the sweetness of a lolly?
I think She must be rather more than that, surely!
Nor would She separate Herself from us coolly.
OK, I'll tell you the truth of it. (Or shall I?
Who of us knows the truth of anything fully?)
Nevertheless, I can make a sortie or sally.
Know this: I was once with Hafiz. I was really.
A seer told me this – and he was not merely
a charlatan, I promise. So you must rally.
You must set your will to accept I see clearly.
Poor Hafiz. In that life he was off his trolley!
He got it wrong about God. Well, it was early
in our understanding. Now we guess more nearly.
It is true we've always known God loves us dearly.
Therefore She will never depart from you, silly!
She is not trivial or fickle or frilly.
Neither is the path to Her side steeply hilly.
The one who tells you this is speaking truthfully
from deep Remembrance ... if not strictly ghazaly.
Written for dVerse "Meeting the Bar – The Ghazal".
I added a further constraint, rhyming every line rather than just every couplet. On the other hand, I ignored the refrain. However it's more un-ghazaly in mood than form.
[Fellow-Aussies, please applaud me for having resisted working in "Up there, Cazaly!"]
After reading all the beautiful poems others have written to this prompt, I feel a bit ashamed. Perhaps I'll try a serious one too in the near future. (Though actually this one does have a serious message underneath the play.)
1 February 2018
Wendy Rule's Concert, 31 Jan - 1 Feb 2018
To Andrew
The full moon singer
live on my computer
is in America, next to a mountain.
It's cold there. She is dressed
in warm black pants and jacket,
red beret and hiking boots.
She plans to see the dawn,
she tells us, after her singing.
Here in Australia, it's midnight.
I'm still in sarong. The electric fans
are still blowing air around my living room.
The sky outside is black with cloud.
Between songs, Wendy reminds us:
the blue moon blood moon super moon,
Leo moon of creativity and sovereignty,
is present though we cannot see.
So are you, whom I also can't see
except in my mind. When
did you not celebrate full moon with me?
When did you not watch an eclipse
alongside me? When didn't we
attend Wendy's concerts together, here
on her visits to this our magical home
under our own mountain?
I know your spirit is with me tonight
as she casts the circle. Here in the South
it's Lughnasadh, aka Lammas, a time
of early harvest. I gather up in thought
blessings that form my harvest, including
you and the times we had together.
In the Northern half of the world it's Imbolc,
beginning Spring: new life. And I renew.
For Midweek Motif ~ Moon at Poets United.
Musician Wendy Rule, an Australian now based in Santa Fe, is also a witch who casts circle at all her concerts. You can still find this one on YouTube.
28 January 2018
Words of Power
The man next door
is beset by demons.
When he's off his medication
I hear him banging around
trying to fight them off.
He always resorts at last
to his most potent curse
which he yells with grim intensity
and awesome courage: "Fuck off!"
Judging by the sudden silence,
it works. Then he switches on
his talkback radio, loud
enough to hold the spirit hordes
back beyond his walls:
words from the outside world
making a noisy babble in his ears
to drown those other messages
only his ears can hear.
I have words for him too.
"If you keep using my phone
or cadging milk and sugar,
I'll need you to pay." (Thinking,
"I'm not your mother.") Now
he never speaks to me, which I prefer….
But he's in the right place. Every night
I send through the fence, like lasers,
I send through the fence, like lasers,
the words "Light" and “Love".
Magaly, in Art with Me at "imaginary garden with real toads" says she believes words have power (I do too!) and that they can be a way towards healing (so do I!). She asks us to explore "one or three (even thirteen) things you believe words can do for you and others".
26 January 2018
"Plenty of Time Later," You Said
Dear, one day
I might die,
and most likely
(we could suppose)
before you do.
Such a thing
need not matter –
need not sound
the faintest bell
inside your mind.
Already you stop
the taking in
of my presence
in the world.
I am erased.
The real erasure,
when it happens,
will be anti-climax.
You are wise,
are you not?
21 January 2018
How Do You Like Your Blue-Eyed Boy, Mister Death?
Thank you, I like him fine.
Buffalo Bill will never
not be handsome now,
and his prowess won’t deteriorate.
And when I give him back
to the cradling earth again
– for I don’t get to keep them, you know –
dressed in a new body and sporting a new name
perhaps you’ll meet him once more, in a different dream
… unless it is you I am holding then.
Unless it is you I lead by the hand
to your new, true awakening….
to your new, true awakening….
At "imaginary garden with real toads" Brendan asks us to "dance with a ghost", i.e. to respond to another poem. (Well no, it was to play tennis, but I prefer to dance.) The original e. e. cummings poem is one of my favourites – and hey, if someone's "defunct", they're really a ghost! (I have read the cummings poem bitterly in the past, identifying with the questioner. So in a way I am here talking to myself, using Death's voice to persuade myself of a different, kinder perspective.)
The "different dream" is an allusion to the final passage of Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet, and in Death leading one by the hand I was recalling Sir Terry Pratchett's lovely posthumous tweet (involving his fictional character, Death).
20 January 2018
Summer Evening
The heat cools to comfortably mild.
I look out the front door
and see, on the top step,
my dear man taking the air
in his chair on the landing.
Our pantherish old black cat, Levi,
sprawls near him on the mat.
Tortoiseshell Freya is curled up neatly
close by on the second step.
And there's me. I am sitting
on the top step, leaning back
against the rails: positioned to see,
talk to and touch all three....
*********
*********
It's five years ago and more.
All of them are dead now.
Even on such a pleasant evening
I never sit, these days, on
the front steps, enjoying the air.
Sharing at Poets United's Poetry Pantry #388.
Featured by Sherry at Poets United in Poems of the Week: Furry Feline Friends We Have Known and Loved, along with poems by Toni Spencer and Susan Chast.
Sharing at Poets United's Poetry Pantry #388.
Featured by Sherry at Poets United in Poems of the Week: Furry Feline Friends We Have Known and Loved, along with poems by Toni Spencer and Susan Chast.
4 January 2018
The Opening of Doors
I usually barge right on through, and usually
there is some light on the other side, even
when one might think I’d have done better
to leave that door shut. Sooner or later
there is always light – some – and often
a late burst of unexpected brilliance … and
sometimes the door opens onto sustained
sunlight, and I need only enter and bask.
And there are times when I’m just here,
and a door opens to let someone else
come through, towards me, and that
can be sweet or exciting or possibly
nothing at all – but nothing demands nothing,
which is restful; and so, one way or another,
I tend to like it when doors open: I tend to see it
as a good thing … for the most part, anyway.
Best of all is when doors become irrelevant:
when, instead of traversing some boundary or
entry, some turning-point or edge, we rise
skyward, unfettered, on waves of pure thought:
lifting into flight, cavorting on clouds, floating
and dancing in long arabesques, ethereal
pirouettes … which pleasure is encompassed
even better together, and so let our minds
entwine. Meet me in the middle of the air!
The final sentence is stolen from a Paul Kelly song based on the 23rd Psalm. This particular line, which he inserts into it, is by Kelly himself and not the psalmist – and has different connotations from those I give it here.
This poem was inspired by the Doorway(s) prompt at Poets United this week.
2 January 2018
A Manifesto for the New Year
I have not got the music
but I have the words.
I have not got the dance steps
but I have the words.
I have not got the numbers
but I have the words.
I have not got the science
but I have the words.
I do not have the lovers (any more)
but I (still) have the words.
I call out loudly with the words.
I throw my arms up and my head back,
shouting the words triumphantly.
I whisper softly with the words,
bending close to your secret ear
and breathing them,
exhaling so lightly you can hardly feel –
but listen hard and you'll hear.
Sometimes I shout them in rage. And outrage.
Sometimes, I wish to whisper venom.
The words are mine
to do with as I will.
(God said so,
who gave them to me at my birth.)
I can make them sing,
I can make them dance.
I can make them count.
I can make them explain – if you will follow –
the secrets of the Universe.
I can make them bring back my lovers.
Yesterday is breaking up, falling away.
Yesterday is getting thrown out with the garbage.
But the old words live on,
unable to be entirely discarded.
Words have power. I call up the power
from deep inside. I call up the words
from where they too are anchored within.
I set them free. I let them loose.
Now I make them new, like seedlings, like cubs.
They will play. They will grow. They will climb all over you.
At 'imaginary garden with real toads', Bjorn invited us to write a manifesto for 2018. I am not much for such things ... but then I watched Patti Smith on YouTube (who does have the music and the dance as well as the words) and – in the mysterious way it happens – suddenly became inspired.
Also sharing this at Poets United's Poetry Pantry #386
Also sharing this at Poets United's Poetry Pantry #386
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