The vision the conversation is about is recorded here.
Me without –
without hope, without vision,
without a dream for the future –
what could that be?
A testing?
A between kind of place?
A terrible thwarting?
No – matter
is not sufficient.
I need also the soft frisson
of hope, though it may be
delusion.
The truth of fact
is one thing, and facts
are hard to shift, they are
rocks you trip over.
Truth stretches though,
to fractal infinity
with built-in random.
So I have hope
enough to create a vision.
The way is up,
I believe.
Then my friend
tells me
her truth.
Rich, awful telling.
(Some of it I've heard
in other places before.)
A vision for the future
will pull you back, she says.
You'll be stuck
in / with / to
the past you label bad.
Isn't it better to see
your vision here, now?
Never mind (I think)
what I do see here and now.
The mere word Aleppo
conjures maimed children,
terrified parents.
In my own town
I see the deranged,
the homeless,
walking about
as part of 'normal'.
I will not blind my eye.
How long
should we let this lie?
Well, there is being and doing.
Nothing ventured....
The watery grief, even
the shock and rage,
all are real, each
is necessary, this
is a way to finding out
what more brings life to life.
From that we create vision.
My soul can have it be
here, now, radiant, yes,
but my body
is trapped in time,
and my personality too,
frequently.
Pausing
for reflection
is a thing we can do.
We can pull the vision close,
make it
an act of creation.
Deliberately stepping
for this moment
out of time,
hearing in mind and heart
the sweet words
expressing our vision –
right then it is here,
we are in it,
and we carry back
to the everyday world
that consciousness –
a mechanism
of infiltration,
helping the vision spread.
High?
Far?
Always yet to be reached?
No. Only hear it.
Only hold it.
Know it.
Be it.
And if that seems unreal,
simply start
here, now.
Back Story
Susan, at Poets United's Midweek Motif, asks us for a vision of the future, in poetry. I am one of a sisterhood called the Goddesses of Shining Light, who spent months last year creating and articulating just that (though not in verse). Here (again) is the link; we are inviting people to listen and, if they choose, hold it in consciousness (and in their daily meditations if they do that). I couldn't say it better (and btw the concepts are not new – though arrived at anew – but bear reiterating). So I thought to write, instead, a poem about creating a vision.
I began with an erasure, and the idea that I might expand it. A friend (Debi Swim) sent me a package wrapped in a Barnes and Noble bag with an excerpt from Huckleberry Finn printed on one side, one from Moby Dick on the other. We don't have B&N in Australia; I was enchanted! The first verse of my (unexpanded) erasure poem below was from Huck, the second courtesy of Ishmael.
Meanwhile I posted on facebook the invitation to listen to our vision. A friend suggested we'd do better to envision our ideal world as already here, not to dwell on the negatives (though in fact I don't think our vision does that, except perhaps by implication). I understand where she's coming from. However.... We had a long discussion, which gave rise to an expansion of the erasure poem into something else. I even incorporated (in verse two) some of Spellcheck's more creative mistakes! The resulting poem, above, is my vision poem for the prompt (not the vision itself – for which you must click the link and listen – but about the process).
Creating a Vision
(erasure)
me without
no matter
the truth
stretches
the way is up
rich awful
never mind
how long
nothing
the watery
is a way
my soul
pausing
deliberately stepping
high